Words and Wine- Acoustic Edition- Karina Garcia - Poetry Reading of Upward & Downward Spiral

This video was taken a while back by Jerry Oviedo at a Poetry Venue entitled Words & Wine which takes place in Miami at the American Legion on Wednesday Nights. Although the visual of me is rather dark the sound quality is excellent and it is me reading my poem entitled Upward & Downward Spiral! Enjoy!

Perplexed ~ By: Karina Garcia

Some days I feel as though I’ve been hexed

As these days all I feel is vexed

Like my life has been nothing but a wreck

The kind where you have to leave it all behind and say

What the heck? What are you going to throw at me next?

As there’s nothing that’s going to lay me to rest

I’ve survived many of life’s tests

These days I find myself perplexed by your actions

Surprised that in me they have yet to trigger an impulsive reaction

As those have been known to just start a chain reaction

The kind where in the end no one feels any satisfaction

Although at times they ignite our chemical reactions

For you my feelings have remained and never went away

Although lately some days I think I’m going insane

My heart has yet to stray

Although I want for us to be together some day

It’s perhaps time for my heart to stray and go another way

As it seems your heart needs help finding it’s way even if it’s from me it strays

I need peace and tranquility these days

Wherever your heart goes whether back to me or to the mystery of this whoever is she

Let me be unless you intend for us to become we

So my heart can be free and I can continue being me and the light again I can see

I may be somewhat masochistic in my ways

As I give in to your sadistic ways

With all the mind games that you play

I think about you and your ways and torture myself with thoughts of our better days

Wishing you’d of never strayed

Wondering why when with me you could of stayed and kept some promises we made 

These days again I find myself perplexed by your actions

Surprised they have yet in me to trigger an impulsive reaction

It’s possible that I’m just being masochistic

But must you really be so sadistic these days with all the things that you say

Or is that just part of your evil ways

Making it easier for you to in some way stay

Rather than just go your own way

So you can blame me for your unhappy days and your lazy ways

Even when I do everything to stay out of your way

So much I’ve kept myself away to the point I may have lost some friends along the way

But who is to say that wasn’t just an excuse for them to just stray and me betray 

You find a way to crawl under my skin and make me cringe

Without even the slightest glimpse nor the sight of you

In ways that although:

 I LOVE U I DESPISE YOU

Have you nothing better to do than make me miserable even without the sight of you?

It must make you feel better to leave me feeling under the weather

I seem to think it gives you pleasure

It’s as if you hold onto me like a pirates claimed treasure

As if your manliness is being measured by your resistance to giving me the pleasure of us enjoying being happy together or at least letting go of me forever

I am definitely to blame for letting you get under my skin and making me cringe

But you’re definitely sadistic despite me being somewhat masochistic

Self ~ By: Karina Garcia

Self
I analyze
Never seem to rationalize
Always feeling paralyzed
I didn't just realize
Myself I just always criticize
Which makes me fantasize of the goals I wish to realize and no longer feel paralyzed yet I continue to overanalyze

Self

Perhaps too analytical
Making me so self critical
Yet this is so typical me
It's the one constant that is me
Perhaps is how I'll always be
Wanting rationality to fit that which is my personality
Yet that's just not my reality

Self

Always searching for contentment
While holding on to my own self resentments
My mind is just relentless
Filled with scattered thoughts which I don't ever piece together  They seem to remain there forever

Self

I want to read you from the outside
Escape my own mind
Before it leads me to my own self demise
I know myself's perspective from both the inside and the outside Believe me I never lie
I'd rather die than let you see me cry

Self

Deep thoughts scattered
Nothing seems to matter
Yet everything makes my world seem shattered
Yet that to mine self should come as no surprise
As that is how I see my world through my own eyes
Eyes who often cry afraid of my own self demise

Self

I am too filled with pride that which I never hide
Letting all feelings rest aside that which I also never hide
You just will never see me cry
Not even if this is goodbye

Me ~ By: Karina Garcia

Me

I am me

This me I'll always be

Whoever that is she

That is me

I am free to be

Just not from whoever that is she

That is me

She holds me back from being truly free

From being all that is I want to be

Perhaps she'll set me free that me who won't let me be all that I can be

Together we can set our other halves free

Live in full harmony of that which is she; that is me wrapped up in one body, one mind and one soul.

We'll forget what we're told

We'll never grow old

Always remain bold

There are many things I've been told

Yet I've never let myself become completely sold

My longing to have someone to hold has at times made me vulnerable to ignore what I've been told

I've allowed myself to be sold

Thus letting myself be left in the cold just to have had a minute of warmth and someone to hold.

Me

I am me

This me I'll always be

Whoever that is she

That is me

I am free to be

Just not from whoever that is she

That is me

She holds me back from being truly free and leaves me open to all this vulnerability

It's time I take full responsibility

"I’m as Feminine as Can Be" By: Karina Garcia

I’m as feminine as can be

But when it comes to your love I don’t know what comes over me

It’s like I fall so hard immediately that I don’t even let you chase me

I don’t give you the chance to pursue me as you so admire femininity

I don’t give you time to miss me nor desire me the way you once did

When you look at me all I want is for you to kiss me so I kiss you

It’s as if I don’t know what else to do

But I know you want it to be you who take the lead in pursuing me

No matter how long we have or have not already been together as us

Don’t get me wrong I enjoy being courted and graciously escorted

I too enjoy being wined and dined it is always graciously divine

Yet why do I ignore it and always allow myself to go for it

Why must I be so blunt and straightforward for everything?

And not just let some things such as these remain a mystery to me

I’m as feminine as can be

But why don’t I have the patience to let you come and approach me

I know this is something that doesn’t let love be

As for you it takes away from your masculinity

And the desire to chase after all that is my femininity

What can I say? Can it be that I’m fire and always so filled with desire?

Or maybe it’s my sense of being kindred and free

Always just wanting to be me as its part of me to take a lead

Is it part of my creativity and the spontaneity of my being?

That forgets that you too have a sense of purpose and being

And that at times I need to slow down and enjoy what I’m feeling

I’m as feminine as can be

I need to learn that seeing is believing, acting is not all about reacting

I hope I can one day be free of these feelings inside of me

Those that make me lose sight of my femininity

Those that don’t always let love be as they invade your masculinity

I hope one day I can I have the patience to let you come and approach me

And fulfill your desire to chase after all that is me and my femininity

I hope to one day again let myself be courted and graciously escorted

I want to again allow you to wine and dine me and let myself feel free

I hope to not always be so blunt and straightforward for everything?

I hope to let some things such as these remain a mystery to me

I want it to be you who take the lead in pursuing me

I’m as feminine as can be

"YOU MY TRUE FRIEND" By: Karina Garcia

Your voice soothes me and your lyrics move me

Your smile is contagious and your spirit is outrageous

You say you are cold and distant

But to me you are warm and close

We are the same in many ways only I'm a girl and you are a boy

We are different yet the same, as what's in a name?

Our bond is like no other yet it wasn't too long ago that we didn’t even know one another

Up until not too long ago I only knew your name

Now you comfort my pain and our friendship isn't in vain

Your honesty with me is key and friends is what we'll be as you definitely relate very well to me

There was something about you the day we met that somehow I knew we would be friends one day

We met by chance not once but twice but suddenly we shared a vice for music and poetry

Immediately you called me a friend and I hope to share this friendship until the end

I feel your words in my heart and soul

They creep under my skin and give my life inspiration and deeper meaning

They usually cause butterflies in my stomach and many sentiments all at once

When they all come together I gain a deeper sense of understanding of art, poetry, music, life & love 

The only things I need in life to achieve the true pursuit of happiness

My friendship with you takes me back to my friendships of my youth

Where I could still be a girl in every single way and every single day

Yet the boys always asked me to come out and play and hang as if I was just one of the boys

Without the misconception that we’d be more than friends or that I’d be so prissy

Just like all the other missies afraid to scrape their knees rollerblading or riding bike

Afraid to break a nail if we took a hike, climbed a tree or jumped a fence instead we just let things be

Don’t get me wrong I was a feminine as can be only they just saw me for me and let me be

We saw right through our differences and got each other through the good times and the bad

We laughed together when we were happy and cried together when we were sad

We were like brothers and sisters and nothing or no one came between us

Now we are just all grown up yet still find time to say what’s up

I know we’ll be friends forever although I could see us together

We are free and kindred spirits sharing intellect, intelligence and artistic insight

Deeply connected synchronicity in time and space as our thoughts are intriguing, dark and complex

You share with me lyrical texts and it reminds me of what we like to call spiritual sex

Especially when your muse the rain too becomes my muse as it ignites my fuse

The rain turns on my desire I get inspired and become amused as words flow with every rain drop

I feel your presence when you’re not there and begin to smile as you so admire

Our bond is like no other yet it wasn't too long ago that we didn’t even know one another

I’d rather remain friends forever although I once thought I could see us together

"Responsibility is Knocking on My Door" By: Karina Garcia

Writing, Singing, Dancing,

Performing, Laughing, Loving,

Hugging, Caring, Sharing

This is what my life is in a nutshell now

Responsibilities are knocking

But I’m not answering the door

As when I think of them

I feel like I’m going to fall through the floor

I’m enjoying every moment

Whether Happy or Sad

Taking the Good with the Bad

As I’m living the life I never had

Not that it was ever so bad

Just these are the days I longed for in so many ways

And I hope they are here to stay

Art, Poetry & Music Surrounds Me

Creativity & Talent at its finest

All which were always part of my existence and so much of who I am

But when responsibility came knocking it was another me walking & talking

But now there’s so much more to me I’m finding as I continue unwinding

Creating new friendships which are binding

New interests which I am liking

Like when I was really into mountain biking

Continuously digging into my psyche

Trying hard to one day likely

Make this journey a permanent reality

Where my art & responsibility become one

And I can continue having fun

While living this dream which is what it now seems

Yet turning this lifestyle into a way to make a living

So I can continue giving and still enjoy the life I’m living

Without having to answer the door

Of the responsibilities which are now knocking

Because it would be who I am they’d be stopping

And once again another me walking and talking and ripping at the seams

Because it’s time for me to realize my dreams

And once again just simply be me

I want to be me the one I see

Me the one filled with hope ideas and creativity

Enjoying activities and floating with gravity

Yes this is my new reality

Finding my identity which was once lost

In the midst of society and expectations

None of which matters now so I sent her on a permanent vacation

This is me now on location living life like a vacation

Writing, Singing, Dancing,

Performing, Laughing, Loving,

Hugging, Caring, Sharing

This is what my life is in a nutshell now

And hopefully forever as it’s me I have finally found

Responsibilities are knocking but I’m not answering the door

As I’m not letting you make me fall through the floor

As my life holds too much more      

Which will one day lead to a better door

One on which you won’t be knocking anymore

"Persistence" By: Karina Garcia

You like my persistence

I don't give into resistance

I am fire

I burn with desire

I go after what I admire

You can choose to give in to my persistence & have no resistance

I've already gone the distance

It's just a part of my existence

It's whimsical

I'm musical

So let's get physical

I know it will be magical

You'll never know if you do nothing at all, so make the call it could be love or nothing at all

Don't worry I won't fall

You are fire it may be that about you I admire and what has me yearning for your desire

I'm blunt and straightforward

It's not in me to hide my desire or be a liar remember I am fire

So now you go the distance & stop your resistance & give into my persistence,

Your kiss is bliss, your smile is genuine & your soul is divine

I want to get to know you, new muse of mine, in your eyes I feel sublime

I was even inspired to write this lust-filled rhyme & not think of the hurt I feel inside

The two don't coincide but it's with you that I want my body to collide

I don’t want us to pay attention to the sign that says slippery when wet

As I like to play slip & slide & feel all warm inside & get tangled during the ride

My desires I will not hide as I'm letting go of the pain I feel inside

As I think of all the possibilities of something new I could maybe one day share with you.

For now you are my muse & my inspiration for this creation I will not lose

As if it's not you I won't be blue nor dazed & confused  

I'll just find a more desirable muse to illuminate & spark my fuse. 

You like my persistence

I don't give into resistance

I am fire

I burn with desire

I go after what I admire

You can choose to give in to my persistence & have no resistance

I've already gone the distance

It's just a part of my existence

"No Sé Que Somos" By: Karina Garcia

No sé que somos

No sé si somos

Pero te extraño

YO SE QUE NUESTRO AMOR ES LOCO Y MISTERIOSO

Y  A LA MISMA VEZ SANO Y Cariñoso

Hay veces que verte me hace daño

Pero Más que nada te Extraño

Hay veces que verte me enloquece

Hay días que pienso en ti cuando me baño

Imaginando tus manos acariciando Y TOCANDO cada rincón de mi cuerpo

En esos momentos se para el tiempo

Es un sentimiento que toda las veces que lo siento crece COMO EL VIENTO

Te quiero ver cuando amanezco en las mañanas

Con tus brazos sobre los míos Y Nuestros Cuerpos Enredados en mis sabanas

Quiero verTE a la Hora de dormir Mirando me con tus Ojos Hermosos PERO SOSPECHOSOS

Y ESA MIRADA QUE DOMINA Y ME Enloquece PARA hacer mis sueños Deliciosos  Realidad

UN día todo esto puede ser verdad

No sé que somos

No sé si somos

Pero te extraño

YO SE QUE NUESTRO AMOR ES LOCO Y MISTERIOSO

Y  A LA MISMA VEZ SANO Y Cariñoso

Quiero sentir tus labios pegados a mi boca

Quiero Sentir TUS BRAZOS ALREDEDOR DE MI CUANDO ME TOCAS

Quiero sentir tu corazón Latir Junto AL MIO

QUIERO VOLVER HACER AL AMOR TODA LA NOCHE

CON TODA TU PASION Y EMOCION

HACER EL AMOR COMO BAILAR EL DANZON

QUIERO SENTIR TUS BESOS VENENOSOS

DOMINANDOME CON AMOR Y PASION

MIRAR TUS HOJOS SOSPECHOS PORQUE SON HERMOSOS

ESO ES MI FASINACION

A tu LADO NO HAY Preocupación  

No sé que somos

No sé si somos

Pero te extraño

YO SE QUE NUESTRO AMOR ES LOCO Y MISTERIOSO

Y  A LA MISMA VEZ SANO Y Cariñoso